給自己想了個英文名 PIA (also reminds me a good sound to not think abt the things i dont wanna think abt. EVERYONE I EVER LOVED, I DID RIGHT BY THEM, I LEARNED MY LESSON, I TAKE IT N EVERYTHING STARTS OVER.. THERES NO SELF-GORGIVENESS DRUG SO U JUST SWALLOW THE PAIN N BURN IN HE11 HAHAHA, ENJOY, DO THE VERY THING U LEAST WANT TO DO IN THE WHOLE IS TO SUFFER, AND I CAN SIT SIDELINE N WATCH, WHAT A PLEASURE, ANYTHING IN ME WORTH LOVING OR I HOPE IT TO IS DIED W THE FEELINGS VANISHED LONG AGO, EVERY FVCKING MOMENT W U, I DONT CARE ANYMORE, THERES NO GREATER PAIN THAN HAVING TO WAKE UP IN THIS HOLLOW SHELL N WISHING THINKING OF U GNA GNA BE THE BETTER VERSION BC I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO CONTORL